I get depressed easily. My job is slow and not challenging so by the end of each week, I am depressed. I feel useless and pointless because if I have no work then why am I there, I must not be needed. I must not be good enough to take on the work that I could be doing.
This is where my friends help. My best friend lives on the road, so he just talks to me and makes me feel needed. But my close friend that lives in town does more. She makes me feel wanted and needed by inviting me into her family. She invites me out to socialize. She is strong, resilient, and independent, but makes me feel like she needs me as much as I need her. I wouldn’t go out if it weren’t for her. I would sit in my house and keep feeling useless and pointless.
But she insists that I come out, she plans things with me, she takes care of me by driving me home if it gets too dark for me to drive. I don’t think she knows how much she means to me. She and my children are my saviors.
My Bipolar and Me 